It’s a wrap, and a prediction

I had another date with The Rock again last night. Sushi and drinks in a beautiful town in central Jersey. The conversation flowed, he was sweet in his gestures and well, probably not for me. I can’t quite pinpoint it but I’m not feeling it. It may be that he is pushing a relationship with me, to be exclusive, and honestly, I’m not ready for that yet, or maybe I don’t want it with him. Probably the latter. It’s a wrap on this one for me.

As a self-described relationship girl, this probably comes as a surprise to many who don’t know me, but I won’t be with someone just to be with someone. Been there once and it was a disaster. And it’s also the reason why I won’t be with someone who has continually hurt me, just to be with someone. Been there, done that and trust me, it does not ever end well. It’s too hard when you have to keep wondering when they will hurt you or leave you again. I can’t do that to myself. If I want you in my life you will know it. I’ll fight to save a relationship if I think you and I are worth it, but I can’t do all the saving. I am very picky about whom I allow in my life (if an ex is reading this consider yourself lucky or possibly unlucky because at times I am relentless lol).

And most likely the reason I am not ready for a relationship with anyone right now is VG is still in the picture. Next year at this time I predict I will be writing about how we make our long distance relationship work (lordy I hope I did not jinx it!). I won’t go into details yet, I need to keep them private from everyone in my life. Sometimes oversharing harms the outcome. It is between he and I, but a conversation happened that was a game changer for both of us. I will share when I am ready. But it is good, really good between us, and about to get better. A reunion is imminent and I can’t wait to see those hazel eyes and crooked adorable smile. I’m smiling just thinking about him. It won’t be easy, his work schedule, school for me, and distance all bring challenges to us seeing each other frequently, but we promised make the best of the time we can allow. We both feel that the future will eventually hold a different scenario for us when it comes to distance, and it’s a good scenario. Patience and understanding with each other will be the key to us making this work.

And I received the best possible news this week as well. My Dad’s cancer was downgraded to low grade after his procedure. This basically means that it will be watch and wait with checkups every three months. The cancer has not spread. His 89th birthday is Tuesday and today I celebrated at his house, there was so much to celebrate.

School starts in two weeks (insert screaming face here) so I’m planning some beach days before it happens. My life is about to get quite hectic, but in a good way, and my love life is about to take off, in a great way. Fingers crossed.

Have a great week everyone. Stay positive and strong, xo.

Advertisements

About geminilvr

I have been through many relationships in my life, most long term, and they have all shaped who I am in some way. I try to find humor through the pain and heartbreak and find the strength to do it all over again. My blog is sprinkled with past relationships, current status and thoughts on it all! I hope my experiences make you smile, laugh or cry along with me and relate to the complexity that is life, my life, perfectly imperfect.
This entry was posted in bloggers, blogging, blogosphere, breakups, commitment, communication, dating, family, goals, hurt, life lesson, love, relationship goals, relationships, Uncategorized and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink.

21 Responses to It’s a wrap, and a prediction

  1. Ally L. Mare says:

    I hope you have a great week too, gemilvr. All the best!

    Liked by 1 person

  2. bklynboy59 says:

    Glad to hear your father is doing better. I hear what you are saying about who you allow in your life. It is just as important who you dismiss from your life. Too often we have too many people who are just there for their own selfish reasons. Normally I with you the whole ride my friend however you do have me confused on one thing…you are dating one guy who is pushing for a relationship who you are not feeling yet you are hot and ready for VG who isn’t in front of you. How can you be sure VG is the one and not playing games? Long distance relationships works when there are proof of trust. I am not saying that VG isn’t the one however to me the guy you are seeing or any guy isn’t really in the picture if you are pining for VG and in that sense it’s not doing any guy any justice. Again you know I am always good with you . On this …your faithful reader is confused. Please clear up.

    Liked by 1 person

  3. Your take on relationships is on spot! And I’m really glad that your Dad is getting better, that’s a miraculous and great news! I wish you and him all the very best.. 🙂

    Liked by 1 person

  4. Glad to hear your father is doing much better and about the other situation just keep your eyes open and your heart as well. Best wishes

    Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s