I had another date with The Rock again last night. Sushi and drinks in a beautiful town in central Jersey. The conversation flowed, he was sweet in his gestures and well, probably not for me. I can’t quite pinpoint it but I’m not feeling it. It may be that he is pushing a relationship with me, to be exclusive, and honestly, I’m not ready for that yet, or maybe I don’t want it with him. Probably the latter. It’s a wrap on this one for me.
As a self-described relationship girl, this probably comes as a surprise to many who don’t know me, but I won’t be with someone just to be with someone. Been there once and it was a disaster. And it’s also the reason why I won’t be with someone who has continually hurt me, just to be with someone. Been there, done that and trust me, it does not ever end well. It’s too hard when you have to keep wondering when they will hurt you or leave you again. I can’t do that to myself. If I want you in my life you will know it. I’ll fight to save a relationship if I think you and I are worth it, but I can’t do all the saving. I am very picky about whom I allow in my life (if an ex is reading this consider yourself lucky or possibly unlucky because at times I am relentless lol).
And most likely the reason I am not ready for a relationship with anyone right now is VG is still in the picture. Next year at this time I predict I will be writing about how we make our long distance relationship work (lordy I hope I did not jinx it!). I won’t go into details yet, I need to keep them private from everyone in my life. Sometimes oversharing harms the outcome. It is between he and I, but a conversation happened that was a game changer for both of us. I will share when I am ready. But it is good, really good between us, and about to get better. A reunion is imminent and I can’t wait to see those hazel eyes and crooked adorable smile. I’m smiling just thinking about him. It won’t be easy, his work schedule, school for me, and distance all bring challenges to us seeing each other frequently, but we promised make the best of the time we can allow. We both feel that the future will eventually hold a different scenario for us when it comes to distance, and it’s a good scenario. Patience and understanding with each other will be the key to us making this work.
And I received the best possible news this week as well. My Dad’s cancer was downgraded to low grade after his procedure. This basically means that it will be watch and wait with checkups every three months. The cancer has not spread. His 89th birthday is Tuesday and today I celebrated at his house, there was so much to celebrate.
School starts in two weeks (insert screaming face here) so I’m planning some beach days before it happens. My life is about to get quite hectic, but in a good way, and my love life is about to take off, in a great way. Fingers crossed.
Have a great week everyone. Stay positive and strong, xo.