Life has been going so good lately. It scares me. All that I have known the past couple of years have been some highs and very low lows. It’s downright frightening that everything has fallen into place after so much heartache and chaos the past couple of months. Family illnesses are holding steady – no bad news on that front only normalcy. My sibling still has cancer but it has not progressed and although she is still battling and exhausted she is doing okay. We find out if my Dad’s cancer is in remission in another month. He has been feeling really good too.
Work is going great. Busier than ever, but I love what I do and whom I work for. This time last year I was fighting to keep this position, at the time it was supposed to only be a temporary placement after I was let go due from my old job to budgetary reasons. Funny how with some persistence and patience, and of course busting my ass to prove myself, it has paid off.
And for the big one – my new/old relationship is going better than I ever thought. We are spending the weekend at his home away from home, his beach house, and after meeting friends of his and spending lots of time together, I am feeling more secure and happier in a relationship in a very long time. My guard has come crumbling down, well almost, but I’m getting there. Although I have been in many long term relationships this one feels like my older ones – normal, unlike the unstable and tumultuous ones of recent. He stimulates my mind, my heart and well, everything else too. We are good for each other, in many ways, and I am beyond happy that we found our way back to each other. It is what I deserve.
Maybe this is how it was all supposed to work out. When you descend into darkness you are tested and I know now I will always pass the test to make it back into the light. And when you come back up, you appreciate who you are and what you deserve. And that is one lesson I will never forget.