If you have been following me you are aware that healing and how I’m dealing with life is the underlying theme to my blog. I was in the throes of spiraling downward when I started writing and wanted an outlet to heal. So many nights I cried as I typed. I wasn’t sure how I would ever feel better. Although I was surrounded by people who love me, I felt alone too. When you are able to talk to your friends, your closest confidantes, you feel comforted. It is when I climbed into my bed, alone, that my thoughts started and pain would engulf my heart. I kept telling myself I will get better, I have been through much worse in my life and I survived and healed from those wounds. Or did I? Do we ever completely heal or do we just learn how to deal and get stronger?
We all have scars and issues. We have all felt pain – debilitating, heart wrenching pain. To heal is a never ending process. Life is full of challenges, constant challenges. At times, you may be feeling a lull when everything is going just fine and then all of a sudden a curve ball is thrown your way. Even when you think you are fully healed, a memory may invade your mind, tug at your heart, try to break you. It may be fleeting or it may linger. But as the quote says above, the damage doesn’t disappear, but that damage no longer controls your life and your thoughts. And it may have broken you down, temporarily, but it did not break you. Don’t let it break you, but most of all don’t look at those moments when the pain returns as weakness because that is when your inner strength takes over. And when it does, you know you are on the path to healing. Always be proud of how far you’ve come and how strong your are to deal with the challenges you face. I know I am.