One thing I have learned in my later adult years and especially in the past few years, if you are in denial about someone’s actions and how they treat you, you are making up excuses for that person and just masking the truth. I have done it, we probably all have at one time or another. Excuses are exhausting. Defending someone who’s actions are indefensible is also exhausting. Why do we do it? Is it loneliness or fear of the person not being part of our life when we finally come to the realization that they are not worthy of our time and effort? Who are you trying to convince? Most likely just you.
Hard questions with answers that you may be trying to avoid. Stop the denial, stop the excuses, stop the hurt. There’s no denying that once you do, peace and happiness will eventually fill the void. I know, I’ve been there too.