It has been almost a year since The Complicated One and I broke up and he moved out. We still talk and catch up with each other pretty regularly. It is not meaningless drivel but more of a deep care about each other. At least I’d like to think so. Any romantic feelings have been long gone and we are able to be friends and see each other through a different lens.
After we broke up, my life began to spiral for quite a long time. We had been arguing for so long and we were never really on the same page about our relationship, at least he was not. We lived together for eighteen months and our breakup crushed me. We had some really good times but some really bad times too. He isn’t a bad person, he just never chose me and chose a lifestyle that he never wanted to include me in either. I know the guy that many of his friends do not. And I still believe I am one of the few genuine people in his life. I learned some hard lessons being with him and I lost myself after we broke up and I think I lost myself a little too while we were together. But I have come back stronger and wiser.
As I have said in previous blogs I think we will always be connected in some way. This time though it does not involve pain and heartache. It involves friendship, sometimes it’s a little strange, sometimes a little more normal, but it is ours. Not everyone understands, sometimes I don’t even understand how we managed to salvage a friendship but we did. I think it may be because I finally realized what I can handle and expect and it is on my terms too, not just his, and that has made all the difference.