We all have parts of us that we would like to change. Many of us suffer from poor body image. We may look at our bodies and think I wish I could get rid of my thighs that jiggle when I walk. Or the extra flab around my belly or my back fat, etc. If only we can see how beautiful we really are in the eyes of the people that love us.
I am guilty of body shaming – myself. I have friends that tell me I look great, I don’t need to lose any weight but I don’t see it. So many of us do it and we let society dictate what is size appropriate. When I was at my thinnest late last summer I thought I looked great, but I didn’t feel great. I am tall and was wearing sizes that were made for someone much shorter than me. My clothes were hanging off of me. In reality I looked sick. It wasn’t due to an eating disorder, I wasn’t intent on harming myself. I am a person, who when under extreme stress, does not turn to food for comfort. I find that my stomach won’t handle food well. So not only was I physically not well, I was emotionally not well. A terrible combination.
Since then, I have gained a few pounds and overall I like how I look but I still want to slim down just a little, again. I’m not sure I will ever get to the point where I am completely happy with my physical appearance. It is a never ending cycle. The negative talk starts and I have to stop myself and it isn’t always easy to do so. I guess I see things I need to change that others do not. But then again it is all part of my personal journey, I can’t expect anyone to see what I see or feel how I feel. I vow I will try to stop the negative talk, it’s hard, really hard, but I will make an effort to do so.
So in closing, embrace your jiggle, embrace your beauty, but most of all embrace all that you are. I promise I will too.
Happy Sunday everyone.