You know who you are. I think most who read my blog know which story I am referring to. I’m not sure if you are reading my blog, I did send you the link. My blog is who I am and I’m not afraid for you to read it. I only stay anonymous for two reasons – to protect those I write about – and I want to keep certain things private from my family.
I’ve been trying forget you. I’ve been keeping busy, meeting people, going on dates, working on myself. I’ve really tried to keep you out of my thoughts, but somehow it always comes back to you. It may not have been a long time we were together but I feel like something good was going to happen, in time, maybe when things settled down. We are oil and water on many things, we’ve laughed about it, but that never made me question being with you.
I know I screwed it up, I recognize what I did. We both had and still have a lot going on, but I don’t think it is anything that we can’t handle, with some understanding from each other. I haven’t changed who I am, just how I deal with stress. I’m still the same girl that I know made you laugh, pissed you off at times, made you shake your head, talked your ears off, and had no sense of direction. I’m also the girl who couldn’t wait to be alone with you.
All I wanted, and still want, is just to talk with you. I have things I’d like to say. I just want you to listen and maybe understand. No decisions need to be made, just listen and take it all in. No pressure on you, just on me.
Funny thing is I’m not even sure if you are seeing anyone else or if you’ve written me off, but I’m taking a chance because I know you are worth it and we are worth a better shot than how things were left.
Just one conversation. And then you can decide if you want to talk some more or walk away. And I will not document what happens to us going forward. I will keep that private and between us (sorry anyone who follows my blog).