Blue eyes, Gray eyes

via Daily Prompt: Glitter

I think my eyes are my favorite physical feature. They vacillate between a crystal clear blue and light gray and seem to change color with what I wear. The pigment in my eyes glitter and sparkle with more light and of course happiness.

Lately life has been handing me lots of lemons, and at times I have no strength to even make lemonade with them. I haven’t written too much about what is going on because I am at crossroads with someone. I am confused by his recent behavior and I’m not sure if I need to just let go completely and say goodbye. I’ll write more about it someday, when I am ready, and I am hoping it will be a happier story but I’m not so sure right now.

I know I am strong, I will eventually get through this and hopefully have the clarity I so crave right now. And maybe then my eyes will sparkle again too.

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Missing you

via Daily Prompt: Translate

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Tu me manques. I came across these words in a poem I was reading months ago. It is the French version of I miss you. The difference is it can also translate as you are missing from me. I love that. I think the context of the phrase changes ever so slightly but yet so much.

I miss you – a longing to see you, wanting to spend time with you.

You are missing from me – you are a part of my being, my soul, without you I am not whole.

The author went on to say:

Most days I miss you in English, on my worst days I miss you in French.

I found these words so very powerful.But of course, no matter how the phrase is translated, it is the response received that can mean everything or nothing at all.

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Squat (ters) be gone!

via Daily Prompt: Squat

My goal for 2017 is to get rid of those squatters who take up too much time in my brain and my heart. They are not paying me rent and I am allowing them to take up space, continually finding ways to destroy it and remodel as they please.

Now if only I could be a bad-ass landlord and evict them.

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Sensitive and proud of it

I’m strong but I also love hard and forgive easy and I will not change that about me, and I don’t think I could, even if I tried.

“Highly sensitive people are too often perceived as weaklings or damaged goods. To feel intensely is not a symptom of weakness, it is the trademark of the truly alive and compassionate. It is not the empath who is broken, it is society that has become dysfunctional and emotionally disabled. There is no shame in expressing your authentic feelings. Those who are at times described as being a ‘hot mess’ or having ‘too many issues’ are the very fabric of what keeps the dream alive for a more caring, humane world. Never be ashamed to let your tears shine a light in this world.”

Anthon St. Maarten

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Sounds of Silence

via Daily Prompt: Sound

If my tears had sound they would be similar to a waterfall

If my heart breaking had sound it would be similar to glass shattering

But although you could hear the sound of my voice wanting to talk with you, you choose not to, and I am left with listening to the sounds of my own pain

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How to Be Comfortable Alone on Valentine’s Day

I love this piece from a fellow blogger – for those who feel alone today or have gone through a breakup – some sage advice

Must Be This Tall To Ride

guy sitting alone at restaurant Totally NOT this. I promise. (Image/Its Box Office Forums)

If I’m hospitalized or incapacitated from a car accident or emergency health problem, my ex-wife will be the first person anyone calls.

That’s because, even four years after our divorce, she’s still my emergency contact.

In a reverse-scenario, I’m probably the fourth person to get an emergency call about her. Yes, I’m aware of how pathetic that sounds.

On a night where she might go out for dinner, drinks and whatever else with her boyfriend if our son wasn’t at home with her, I’ll sit alone in my kitchen writing things for a client after grabbing a takeout dinner on the drive home later.

I have no way to prove I’m not just writing this in some lame attempt to sound cool or tough, but I have exactly ZERO problems with my Valentine’s Day plans today.

I want to talk about why, because…

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Be(a)ware of what you say

via Daily Prompt: Aware

Be aware of what you say to someone or beware the consequences. I have had hurtful things said to me by the men in my life, friends, family and those words have stung. I have been labeled, unfairly, and had assumptions that turned out to not be true. I write quite a lot about judgement and perceptions. And as I have said before words hurt and once you say them, you cannot take them back. You can apologize and say you didn’t really mean it. But to the person you said them to, they hurt.

I won’t get into a full list but below are some words and phrases that have been said to me over the years. I am brave enough to post them and it may be uncomfortable to read, but next time you think of calling someone out, stop, take a breath and think how you would feel if it were done to you.

You were dishonest, stop being so emotional, you’re just crazy, are you bipolar (I’m not and that is a terrible word to toss around), I can’t be with a cheater (never happened), she’s self-harming on purpose (said from one friend to another because I lost weight from stress), bitch, dumb, stupid, selfish,  just learn to be strong and stop acting so weak all the time, you’re having an affair (also never happened), you never tried hard enough you could have been so much more. I’ll stop here.

The persons associated with these words have and have not apologized to me. Some have regretted saying what they said and insist it was only said in the heat of anger. Others still believe what they only want to believe. Regardless, even if you  have not asked for it I forgive and I try to forget and move on. It’s the only way I heal.

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Your taste intoxicates me

via Daily Prompt: Lush

There is nothing like it when you pass my lips and enter my mouth. Your lush taste is like no other. My tongue is aroused, longing for more. I try to enjoy you slowly but my senses take over and I take you in so quickly, wanting more and more. Once is not enough, I crave you more and more and as I give in and finish you off, I have no regrets, just satisfaction.

No I’m not talking about any ex or current love. The above is my love affair with Cadbury’s fruit and nut bars, I am addicted. I eat the whole damn bar in one sitting even though it is not one serving. Sorry, not sorry.

Happy Friday everyone 😉

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Check yourself too

Great quote by comedian Louis CK. We are told repeatedly to love ourselves, but we also need to be aware of our actions and words towards others too. Your opinion may be harsh, unwarranted and hurtful, even if you think you are saying the right thing to help someone.

louis

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Loud and Clear

via Daily Prompt: Heard

When you walked away and slow-faded contact I heard you loud and clear, but I had hope. When you blamed everything on me I heard you loud and clear, but I had hope. When you didn’t ask or care about how I felt I heard you loud and clear, but I had hope. When you never took ownership for your actions I heard you loud and clear, but I had hope.

When you wonder why I no longer care about you and what happens to you, I hope you hear me loud and clear – I’ve finally given up on you too.

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